So…I believe I am truly, madly, deeply over my graduate program, advisor and qualifying (quals) exams chair. I just had one of the worst meetings of my life. I do not know what to do. I know a change is in order; however I really do not know what to do. Do I change advisors and quals committee and start anew? Or do I suck it up and keep on going? I am beyond confused, sad and dismayed at this moment. Luckily, one of my BFFs is coming over tomorrow night so I’ll get to debrief with her and get a fresh perspective. Sigh…
Weekly Update…
As I reflect on the past seven days, I have to admit, I have had one incredible week. I kicked it off with a lovely brunch with my BFF (who was in town visiting), her family and friends. It was an enlightening meal and I got a glimpse of what true friendship looks like 40-50 years down the road. I can only hope and pray to God that in 40 years, I’ll be able to celebrate my 68th birthday surrounded by my family and best friends.
The week proceeded with a great deal of school work (papers, projects and presentations). At the moment, I’m still working on one last paper and a few last-minute projects for school and have a ton of paperwork piling up on my desk at work; but somehow I’ll get through it.
Funny thing, the “ex” has stopped emailing me. Granted, it has only been a week, but a week without any contact from him, is a step in the right direction. And I have to be honest; once I stopped fighting him; things have sort of died down and he’s lost interest. Yay!!
I talk to “the perfect guy” like everyday, whether it is via email, phone or text. I think he and I are destined to be life long friends, not lovers, just friends. Which I’m perfectly okay with me. I think every woman needs a good group of male friends to hangout with and confide in. But with everything, I am taking it one day at a time.
And finally, so I really have mixed feelings for the gentleman I am seeing at the moment. I feel he wants to take things to the next level and I’m afraid, it is too much too soon. I have a great deal of trepidation and concern about entering a relationship (of any kind) with him (because I need more time to really get to know him), however I also don’t want to let my own fear get in the way of something that could be special.
Going into this week, I have a great deal on my plate; however everything will get down in due time. I need to clean and organize my home as I am hosting a get together this week and I also need to get ready for upcoming changes at school. Here’s hoping I have another great week with more time to blog and respond!
Blessed…truly blessed…
Weekend went well. I didn’t do much school work, but I sent out and responded to a great deal of emails, scheduled a bunch of meetings and watched some great football. Yup, that about sums up my weekend…emails…football…and meetings.
Work today, wasn’t so bad. My boss was actually out sick, so it was pretty chill in the office. I have a ton of reading to get through tonight for tomorrow’s classes…but I’m up for the challenge.
I had a brief moment of despair on Friday…but a nice relaxing weekend has helped me begin to realize I am truly blessed. I just have to keep remembering that fact…even on the really bad days. I am blessed and lucky to have the life that I have…
Checking in…
I have had an amazing yet busy week and a half with my family and friends. Once I catch up on sleep, work and get oriented to my new classes…I will be back to share. Wow…this year is already off to a very productive start…
