Rejected…

So, after two weeks of constant fighting and arguing.  The older gentleman broke up with me via text message this morning.  To say I’m disappointed or upset right now is an understatement.  We went out to dinner last night (which I paid for) and went back to his place to have a night recap…that’s when things went South.

I have known for a while that we weren’t going to make it, but this was still a surprise…as he gave me the no matter what happens we have to remain friends speech the day before…

All I know is that I stayed true to myself and said all of the things I needed to say.  He wasn’t too happy with a lot of what I had to say, but it needed to be said and I needed to say it.  He is a 50-year-old man living like a 20-year-old college student (broke as a joke, bad living situation, no car and more)…but with all of that…I liked him.  I should have known we were in trouble when he told me he LOVED me after only a month and a half of dating…I just brushed it off…but the alarms should have gone off!

Basically, I have really poor taste in men…I always seem to pick losers men who are not on my level.  I need to start looking up and not down.  This was exactly the wake up call I needed this morning…I just wished I had received it almost five months ago…

Random Emails…part III

Update…so I had a conversation with him via IM and made my intentions very clear.  While, it was a pleasant conversation and I appreciated the updates, I really wanted to cease communication with him.

He seemed to take it well and hopefully, he’ll respect my request.  But only time will tell…

I really wish there was some way he and I could be friends, because I really enjoy conversing with him, however I am not that strong.  I cannot be friends with him without catching feelings.  Basically, my life is so much easier when we do not communicate…

Tired of being passive-aggressive II…….

So, I received another random email from someone I’d rather not hear from.  At first, I had resigned myself to just ignore the emails and text messages, because I figured it was the easiest thing to do and they would eventually stop coming.

But I realize now I was just being passive.  I have a tendency to be passive-aggressive and I’m trying to change my ways and learn to be more assertive.

So, I finally responded (very assertively and not aggressively at all) and I have to tell you it felt really good to hit the send button!  YAY ME!!!

Tired of being passive-aggressive…

Dear every man who has ever hurt me,

I’m sure this email was sent to me in error.  I don’t know how many other ways I can say this…but I do not want to receive anymore emails or text messages from you.  Funny thing is, when I really wanted and needed to talk to you…you did everything in your power to ignore me by not returning my calls, text messages or emails.

Over the past nine and a half years, I’ve done everything I can think of to try and engage you, but nothing worked and in October I finally threw in the towel.  I deserve and demand more from my friends and you sir are not my friend…sadly, I know now that we’ve never really been friends.

Honestly, I want 2010 and the rest of my life to be free of you…so PLEASE delete all of my email addresses from your contact list and my cell phone number from your phone.

Thank you for your time.

Shedding Some Dead Weight…

I woke up one morning with almost 300 friends on Facebook.  Wow, I thought, that’s a lot; but then I see other people with 500 ,600, 1,000 or 1,600 friends and I’m like damn!

I said to myself, I don’t even know all of these people, better yet, I only really talk to no more than 15-20 people on a regular basis (excluding family members).  In fact, some of the folks on my friend’s list, I don’t even like;, HELL, I really can’t stand!  So, I finally decided it was time to drop some dead weight.

I went from nearly 300 hundred friends, to about 197 in one fell swoop and man did it feel good!  Most of those deleted were individuals, I had gone to high school with and had reconnected with for a brief moment.  My 10 year high school reunion (that I have no intentions on going to) is right around the corner, so you can imagine all of the people on FB trying to reconnect with people.

I figured after my birthday, I’d make another cut and just be left with the people I really talk to and want to see updates from.  I hated the fact that so many people had access to my life!  I’m glad they are all gone and more to follow!  Yay!