Yikes…so I just did something that I probably should not have done. But I really wanted to do it. And you know what…I do not care. Hmmm, I take that back, I do care. I care almost too much. I sent a mean text to someone I should not have. Really, I was trying to be funny, but the recipient apparently does not share my sense of humor. Oh, well, lesson learned.
Chasing Pavements…
I woke up this morning with the goal to be as productive as possible! So, far, I’m doing okay. With only a few interruptions via my DVR, Gmail, and my blog, I think I’m well on my way.
Except, I can’t stop thinking about HIM. After not seeing HIM (in-person) in over five years, we decided it was time for a reunion. I am not going to lie, it was really NICE seeing him and being around him. I realized that I have really missed him. However, looking back on everything…I should have just kept my distance as our little encounter has left me really a little unnerved. Meeting up with him unearthed feelings I thought were long gone. I have gone from being a happy, confident and secure woman to a sad, desperate, pathetic girl waiting from him to call or text. Lord, I swore I would never be that girl/woman again! As it is just not a good look….not a good look at all.
Of course, he has not called or texted…not that I really expected him to. SIGH…I feel like such a fool for falling for his crap again. Damn…I am so much smarter than this and should KNOW better! I know now that we cannot be friends and we cannot be lovers and/or partners either. This time, I really have to sever all contact and ties with him, because it is not healthy for me.
Each time before, we won’t talk or be in contact with each other for a couple of months or so, but then inevitably, someone will send a text or an email and we pick up where we stopped. I tell you, it’s such a vicious cycle! I feel like I’m chasing pavements…
Yikes…I just had a scary epiphany. I haven’t had the best luck with men, because secretly, I think, I’ve been pining for him and sabotaging all my other relationships. I have to make some serious changes soon…
Well, until my next thought…please be well!
Life Can Be So Short…Sometimes…
Yesterday, we lost one of the most beautiful voices in the world. RIP Whitney, may your soul be at peace now. As a little girl, I absolutely LOVED watching this video and listening to her music.
When I heard the news yesterday, I was in shock and could not believe what I was being told. I feel like we have lost a number of great artist recently…Michael Jackson, Luther Vandross, Etta James, Amy Winehouse and now Whitney Houston…all have left this earth way too soon.
Hopefully, they are all in heaven working on new music together. Enjoy…
Quick question…
I saw this question on another blog and stole it…thought it was interesting. Yikes, honestly, I don’t know! As I believe it totally depends on the situation. But that is just me…now I’m posing the question to you:
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Is it okay to stop speaking to and associating with friends that remains friendly with your “Ex” (a person who hurt you badly)?
Yes…No…Maybe…depends on the situation? What do you think?
Love on Top….
I am not the biggest Beyonce fan (shhhhhhhh, she’s starting to grow on me)…but this song is the TRUTH. I cannot wait to feel this way about someone. I am looking forward to the day, someone puts me FIRST! Enjoy.
